I can't do it
I will fail
It is only my imagination
Thoughts like these crossed my mind when we were told that we were going to prophesy over our team, the school and the community. I was really afraid, thinking what if I get a prophecy wrong. Then what?What if, because of that I will be the reason why people drift away from God. What if I am the only one that does not hear God's voice? What if it is only my imagination?
What if...?
What if...
What if because of my "what if's" I will miss everything God is trying to show and tell me?
Well I have finally realized something. God has always been talking to me, but I was just not listening. The whole time I was talking, arguing and getting frustrated with myself for not hearing His voice where all that I had to do is sit, be still and listen. All this time I thought that I just had a huge imagination that ran wild like the Mustangs in the West not knowing where they came from, but now I know it is God talking to me.
To be honest, I still miss things God is trying to tell me. Sometimes I get a prophecy wrong and sometimes I am still scared to just walk up to a person and talk to them.
But God just came and took away my doubts and also reminded me that I am only human and that people do make mistakes. He took away my insecurity of failure, thinking that I can't hear His voice. He took away the idea that I had of Him not wanting to use me. He showed me not be afraid, but to be bold and to step out.
Now my "what if's" are turned into "why not's" and even though I am sometimes scared, I know that I just have to step out in boldness and do what He tells me to do.