Wow, it is finally here, Global 2020! How did I get here? In retrospect, it's a humbling feeling looking back at your life, marveling at the Lords work! Realising how loving and supportive the people around me have been on my journey but moreso how gracious and loving the Lord has been when I deserved His presence, blessing and love the least. I am amazed by the beauty and privilege of being part of the Lords plans! Making heaven busy, and bringing heaven to earth.
I am left in wonder going into Global 2020, wondering where the Lord is taking me?What is next? How is He shaping me? I have so many questions about myself,so many challenges and so much I look forward to. So many unknowns... and surprisingly it's really freeing to know the Lord has this all under control.
Coming to Global my heart was for discovering more.I mean really, there must be more! If i've got all these questions, there's only One that's Mighty enough to take me on this journey in my pursuit of more, my pursuit of deeper life in the word, a deeper life in prayer and a deeper life in the Lord. A more fruitful life of impact wherever God would call me. That my heart may be prepared to grow more in understanding the way in which God sees me, for who I am to Him and for what He has done for me,what His purpose is for me- that being the ultimate truth about who I am. How He sees me is the truth, regardless of how I feel or think about myself,regardless of how anyone else feels or thinks about me,regardless of what my circumstances may seem to say about my value...That His perspective is the perspective that is ultimately true.
With all these questions, I had to stop myself in my tracks to realise that I had so many questions about me! But this is not about me! It's a continual battle of denying the self. This is about surrendering it all to the Lord and seeing what He does with me.
What is it to completely surrender your life to the Lord?Well it is to give complete control to Him. So when we surrender it's really coming to terms with the fact that it's God in control and not me.
Psalm 46:10- be still and know that I am God.
When things happen we take comfort in knowing that God is in control and life is about obeying Him and in doing so, preparing for eternity.
When it says His power is made perfect in our weakness, surrending is realizing we can't do anything in our own strength and we will continually feel like failures if we try to.
Learning to have grace on myself in this time, where I wanted more and more was difficult but in completely surrending this, my life, to Him, it has become clearer that in surrending to the Lord, He will reveal His plans. As things develop and as I grow I will gain more understanding.
Revelation comes when we are still and let God be God.
Have faith and be obedient Gaz, the rest will be revealed. Through revelation comes impact and that can change nations. Joshua 1:9 be strong and courageous to have faith when it seems impossible.