Good day ladies and gentleman, fellow gentiles and people who accedently followed this hash tag.
Global challenge training has been the best time of my life! And that is the truth! i learnt the meaning of life! Yes I know 'what a 'cliche'. A young adult finding herself and the meaning of life during her gap year, but dear unknown reaaders, this is a whole diffirent experience from other life defining gap years. i quote the lyrics from that Hillsong song "I found my life when i lay it down". now i get that it might sound proud, but bare with me.
I am only now starting to get to know Jesus and i invite you to follow this journey where Jesus kills my idea of the cute Jesus I've been building up in my 22 years of existence. Jesus is fierce! The box that i put Jesus in, has been burnt down and trampled on. I use these aggresive terms, because dying to oneself might not feel nice, but then again none of this is for sissies right?
Knowing now how those moments of realization feels... sign me up for the slaughter! My life has changed! The insecure, lazy, pessimist I knew myself to be, never stood a chance! Thank You Jesus! It is no mourning matter, readers, because you see she wasn't all that great anyway. She was a lie.
In the beginning of training Jesus pointed out Ezekiel 36: 22-32
It is not for your sake, people of Israel, that I am going to do these things, but for the sake of My holy name. He will cleanse me so that the people I meet in the nations will know He is Lord. (Go read it! it is very relevant to my experience so far and for what is to come)
And by jove has He proven Himself faithful! He has revealed more of Himself to me resulting in my being fixed and cleansed. It is the most amazing feeling!
I finally consider communion to be an absolute honor and not a bland snack. It means I can live. it's a big deal.
I've found that His joy really is my strength. This became such a reality when i found myself singing all the way through building a road. That is correct, I enjoy manual labour now... His joy carried me through the sufferings during survivor (it resembles the sirvivor on the telly) it was amazing! I loved every second, which is weird, believe me. His joy carried me through Luke 10-ing all the way from Mthatha to Jeffreys Bay. Not only did He provide the basics, but He spoilt us so richly we actually gave food away. You guys don't know me so I'll just add that I would have hated every part of it without the joy of the Lord.
But I'd say the most profound realization was that the meaning of the entire universe is to glorify God. What an honor it is to be used to by God to glorify His Son. My only reward is to glorify Him. Yes yes they are big words and I am sure my selfish self will search for more recognition, but I am sure the next life saving knife (#dietoself) will come through to resque me from myself. He is so faithful.
Realising His power in such a gracious manner has been such a liberal education! Glory to God!
See you next time-> when I shall be in another country learning more about His captivating character.