Indonesia... after Australia I took a fall a literal fall. I was so sick, along with two other, Austin and Mynette's mom. My muscles were so weak I remember one time Austin and I wanted to walk to the Market across the street. Going down the steps was easy coming back up the steps (Elivator was out of order! No jokes) Hell!
We recovered really fast... one day and the next day Calvin and I did Bible study together which was wat we needed (Philippians 3) from then on I was good again until we went to the DG center
I was surrounded by dozens of people who were singing in tongues and I was the only one standing there ready to run out of chuch. And I did, I was so frustrated at the fact that everyone feels the Holy Spirit or freaks out in praise and worship and I on the other hand wanted to run away. I look at this humoristically now because God wanted me to understand something. I was actively trying to obtain His presence while He already gave it to everyone 2016 years ago. No my problem was I was trying to get something I didn't realise I already had. And when I realised God was with me always even when I feel demotivated as hell, things changed.
When someone asked me how are you I would reply better... only 1%, but it's getting there. I realised God was with me and refused to say it was going bad or I feel off, I realised saying it made it worse so I would rather speak of the 1% good things happening to me. And when I finally dropped my act of trying to obtain God's precence He automatically gave it to me. So I was feeling good enough to start memorizing Ephesians little did I know I was going to use it agains many attacks against my mind in the comming weeks. What better way to fend off Satan than with the Truth ?