Debrief in Hawaii made me think about all that happened the 1st forty days of our journey, more specifically in which ways God has been busy with me. It is easy for me to become so focused on others, that when asked what God has been doing in my life, I really have to think about it. Not that He has not done something, I just become so focused on what He is doing in others, that I overlook His working in my life. I’m very thankful for a team leader who makes me think about these things…
Since Egypt, God has been making me aware of a lot of things in my own life. I’ve realized that I tend to do things (or rather not do things) and through that limits God’s working through me. There are so many lies I’ve told myself through the years and actually believe that it keeps me from worshipping Him as I know I ought to. Simple and small things like believing that I cannot sing or dance. The comments people make (not necessarily about me) will cause me to think that maybe that’s true about me too. And slowly I’ll start believing that about myself and rather just keep quiet. I might not have the voice of an angel or even be able to keep the right tone and just be singing false most of the time, but God did give me a voice. Believing the lies then makes it so much more difficult to be obedient when God asks of me to go sing a song out loud or to just dance for Him. This then becomes a problem, because when God speaks and commands me to do something, nothing should hinder me from doing that. I should stand in boldness, even when it may seem like foolishness to others. It’s by being obedient and doing things that seems foolish to others through which people got saved and their faith increased. Just think about Noah, building an ark for a 100 years before it started raining for the first time, or the prophets who had to bring a message to the people through symbolism (like Ezekiel laying on his side for years), David dancing before the ark, Peter jumping out to walk on water, Jesus putting spit on someone’s eyes, etc.)
This led me to think about and desire immediate obedience to God. During our time in Portugal and Gautemala, that’s what He worked on in my life. And it did not come easy (and still does not), but one sees God’s master plans unfolding when you act on the prompting of the Holy Spirit without trying to reason yourself out of it. In the end, it’s not about what others might think or say, what matters is what God thinks and says about things. In Gautemala God also gave me answers to questions I’ve forgotten about. He showed me why certain things happened in my life, what caused it or gave the devil a “legal” hold in my life and the how we have to be even more cautious and aware of what we do when in positions of authority (parents/leaders), because the consequences of our conduct will affect others.
In Hawaii God revealed to me more lies that I subconsciously hold on to, hence the writing of this blog. What more can I say… God is real and we are not living in a fantasy world. What we are experiencing is real, because it is God who’s working in our lives. It’s my prayer that He will keep on exposing the lies in our lives and let the Truth reign in our lives.
Blessings
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