Many times on journey and in Jordan while we are serving, I almost felt arrogant to say or even imply that it often feels like maybe God is also serving us? The Bible explains that God's character never changes and that He is always stays the same. Can I maybe imply that the creator of the universe still serves us with the same servent heart as His only Son, the Son He send to save the world and the same Son that said that if you want to know the Heavenly Father, look to Me. Not seeing God's provision, protection and presence is almost impossible everyday. I think the moments when you know you need God's devine intervention, is the moments when you see Him the most. I am learning that there isn't a difference between being on journey or just being at home, I think we just become more intentional on seeking God and His devine purpose at certain places or in certain situations. I believe that God is consistent, that is something He has really shown me the past few months, He never changes and is constantly working through and in us. While we are seeking His purpose, it seems like He is fulfilling His purpose in us, making us more to the image of His Son.
In the beginning of the year I got so frustrated with different people telling me many contradicting things about who Jesus is and about things of the Bible, I remember asking God and pleading with Him to reveal Himself to me and for me to really get to know Him, for who He really is. As journey continued I could see how God is slowly but surely answering this prayer and I was able to learn so much more about Him. Learning that He provides and protects His children, answers the most specific prayers, loves to give gifts and just really wants to spend time with us.
Not everything was easy in Jordan, during our time there I was sick and I even injured my back. Because of this I was constantly surrounded by the fear of that maybe I am missing out on what God wants me to do and learn in Jordan, I soon felt very negative and frustrated. What was clear to me is that I am still a work in progress, at least I found peace in the fact that I am in very good hands. It seems to me that many times God brings me to my breaking point on journey and then when I break and give up, feeling hopeless and negative, God shows up, with His presence love and peace almost tangible. Maybe God does His best work in the most hopeless places?