It has been a challenging yet amazing month :-)
To know the Lord more and more intimately will be a lifelong journey but in the last few weeks a lot of milage has been covered. The road was rocky at times and I will honestly admit that I have never cried like I had in the last couple of weeks. Yet my prayer remains - more tears - as they are healing!!
What a privilige to be made aware more than ever of God's grace. To know that even though I don't always believe - His opinion of me remains untouched.
I will share one revelation I had about 2 weeks ago. One of my prayer requests before Global Challenge was that God would this year make me aware of my beauty as a woman. (In retrospect a tall order if you think of how we will travel and feel at times this year). I can remember praying this perhaps twice.
One evening during a worship session led by Retief Burger he gave opportunity for us to encourage one another. I remember sitting there and wondering whether God wanted to tell me something through someone else. Seconds later I felt someone's hand on my knee. A team member was sitting next to me telling me of a vision she had just had...
I was standing before God and he was clothing me in a silwer cloth and telling me how BEAUTIFUL I was to Him. And how content He was with me. And I was dancing and laughing while He was saying al this.
I was moved to tears..(again!) and it was just amazing. The prove that this was now truth in my heart was when I came back from painting at the school (not looking my best) and on seeing myself in the mirror thought.."Nice"! :-)
I am yearning for more of these revelations throughout the year. To know who I am in Christ and His purpose for me surpass all other longings.
And even though I have the opportunity to go back to a job at the end of this year a friend shared this with me and I would like to leave you with this.
"I would rather be a gatekeeper in the house of my God than live the good life in the homes of the wicked"
(Ps 84:10)