You or God...?

At the beginning of this year I made the choice to join TICs and I just wanted to go out and spread the Gospel. Little did I know God had different plans for my life. I needed to be equipped first before I can go out and spread the Gospel. At TICs we started the year with an orienation camp where you get tested in certain areas in your life. We did physical training and it was hard. Coming from a backround where I love to train and practice, this camp was nothing to me. One thing I learned in life is to NEVR EVER GIVE UP. The camp was exciting and fun. I had this mentality that life is about me and only me. Then God came, and to be honest He humbled me in the hardest way possible. In my high school career I never lost anything, so I never really knew how it felt to lose. At this camp we had a competition called the Gauntlet where you get tested physically and mentally and it teaches you to endure to the end. I was so excited and the winner got a little warrior trophy and I thought to myself, another trophy I can just add to my collection. Again God had different plans. We started the gauntlet and it consisted of twelve stages doing different endurance challenges. I was leading through out the competition until we got to the last stage. The final 2 competitors competed in this stage and it was between me and a little girl called Franky. I said to myself this is finished, I can win this girl in a second. We were standing and waiting to hear what the last stage is about and it was only a voting stage. All the students got the chance to vote for the winner.  I was sitting in front of all the students while all the votes went for Franky. I asked God why am I losing, I gave my everything? Why are the people not voting for me? Just there He told me "It's not about what you can do, but it's about who you are." Immediately I knew that life is not always about winning or being the best, it's about who you are behind the scenes. He must become greater and you must become lesser. (John 3:30) For the first time in my life I could smile, kowing that I lost. Life is not about me, its about my brothers and sisters. I added a foto and it shows us how my life was. The F tells us that life was about me and only me. Underneath the F is a little cross and that was my relationship with God and I didn't knew Him. As it goes on you will see that I became lesser and God became greater in my life. I ask you today who is sitting on the throne of your heart, you or God?