Upon arrival in Kuala Lumpur I was super excited to move on to Thailand... Not even a 14hour train ride would've been able to put me down... I wanted to visit Thailand because I wanted to see the beaches, I wanted to have Thai massages, I wanted to scube dive, I wanted to buy cheap clothes.
What is missing in the equation? GOD! It is all about me, it's always all about me... I want this and I want that... So when we got told about our different assignments and what each team would have to do, I was convinced that I would be staying in Kuala Lumpur to help with the marketing plan. At first I was terribly disappointed - I've always wanted to see Thailand and now I'm right here and yet so far...
As we completed our various challenge tasks around Kuala Lumpur I became excited and anxious to stay. I thought that God would make me stay to teach me that it's not always about what I want, it's about serving Him as my Lord and following Him. Furthermore the city has so much to offer and so much to see and what a privilege would it have been to help with a marketing plan, that is where my heart is and what I love to do! So again I wanted to stay, I wanted to help with& nbsp;the marketing plan, I wanted to explore the city some more! I changed God's lesson for me into it all being about me ( You can ask my parents, I'm quite good in making it about me...)
When they announced the teams and sent me off to Thailand to help build houses, I have to shamefully admit I was both confused, disappointed and jealous of those staying. I wanted to stay... Weird isn't it? At first all I wanted to do was visit Thailand, then when God gave me the opportunity I was ungrateful.
Today, as I'm sitting in Phuket - which is truly a dream come true for me I am faced with the words of Paul in Phillipians 4:12 "... I have learned the secret of being content in every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want..." At this very moment I have more than I could ever ask for - a air conditioned room, running water, awesome coffee machine, free internet access and yet I can so easily be unhappy. Happiness is a choice! And being content is more than having what you need, it's being happy with where you are, with why you're there and with God's plan for you.
So I chose to be happy, overwhelmingly happy because I have a God who, against my will and better judgement, chose to bless me with more than I could ask. Who chose to make my dreams come true, even when I denied it. Therefore I chose to give my all this month. To be happy to build houses in the Thai heat, to be happy to swim in the sea, to be happy to go for Thai massages and to be happy to be in God's perfect will for me. To follow Him wherever He leads me and to seek to love Him more everyday.To make it about Him instead off about me...
Until next time,
Jana
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