We all know the very famous song; "It's more than a feeling" and we've all joined in singing it at the top of our lungs playing some serious electric air guitar.
But after 4 and a half weeks of being in training at Global Expeditions, these words have developed significant new meaning to me...
After a very emotionally active day, we had a nice worship set up for us, fairy lights and all the necessary things to create a nice "vibe". And I loved it, ybecause I was excited for wanting to feel God's presence because the right atmosfeer was right there.
Except that by the time of the 3rd song I still haven't felt the butterflies or the fuzzy warm feeling inside. But at the same time I wanted to be nowhere else than in that moment, because I knew I was in the presence of God.
So in that moment, I know God placed a seed in my heart that would grow and mature to a true revelation.
A few weeks later we went on this camp with the local high school- GLA. In these 3 days, not once did I experience God's presence tangibly like I have before, nor was it easy to just talk about Jesus and not once was I actually in the mood to talk to any of the kids about the Holy Spirit. But never in my life have I seen Jesus move so much, in the kids, in me and through me on a camp that’s not even a 'Christian camp'. So many times I would not know what to say, or not have the energy to facilitate a conversation, but nevertheless, God chose to work through my earthly mind and hart. He gave my tired flesh the right insight and wisdom for every situation, but I could not grasp how and why.
And then the Holy Spirit revealed to me the revelation and I was just in awe.
I realised that God doesn't need to wait for fairy lights and good music for us to be in His presence. Like that night we worshipped. He doesn't wait for us to be in the right mood for Him to move or to use us. Like on that camp with those kids. And I now know why.
It's because we were created to worship Him. That is our purpose. God doesn't need us for Him to be God. No matter what we feel, when or when we don't feel it or when we're in the mood or not, worshipping and loving the Father is something that's not supposed to be influenced by the factors of the flesh. Our personal desires to satisfy the flesh should never be in the way of what we were purposed to do.
Loving and worshipping God is thus, most definitely, more than a feeling. And on a feeling I shall not depend to lift up my voice to praise, open my heart to worship or pick up my hands to use for the glory of God, but rather to depend on the fact of His steadfast love for me and His firm commandment.
So, in every moment I will worship Him, mood or no mood, vibe or no vibe, because it’s my purpose!