I don't even know what to say, so I am just going to tell you what we did and hope that God will reveal to you the significance of every small detail.
One day at celebration we heard that the community are going to fast until the "It's time" prayer meeting in Bloemfontein. We as a team felt led to also fast and so we did.
Fasting for me is to kill self, not feed flesh, and give space for Spirit to get fed and bloom. I fasted before (we did a Daniels fast) and never had it been this difficult for me. It was not about cravings or withdrawal symptoms or lack of energy. It was because "self", flesh came out more. I was in a constant battle to choose Jesus. To choose to be nice, to kill my thoughts on how easy it would be to quit and to preserve and to run the race that is marked out in front of me. I learned a lot about myself in this time and why I need to die a little more every now and then.
It was hard but we did the fast in remembrance of our country. The great, beautiful, "braai-end" country of ours - South Africa.
Praying and fasting for unity and healing and after ten days standing among a million fellow citizens singing our national anthem "and united we shall stand". It broke my brain a little.
The it's time conference was something that I really believed changed our country. A million people coming together to pray. A million. I think heaven was going crazy about this moment. I was confronted, with something the speaker spoke about, I always compromise on my time with Jesus but I will always make time for an extra hour of sleep or coffee with a friend. I need more of Him!!
I realized that in the throne room (rev 4) there is space for everyone. Every sister and brother that I have in Christ there is place for them. In Daniel 7:10 it says "
A river of fire was flowing, coming out from before him. Thousands upon thousands attended him; ten thousand times ten thousand stood before him. The court was seated, and the books were opened"
A ten thousand upon ten thousand... I saw a million people in one place man. And it is really something. Before the conference started, a few of us climbed up two hills close by to see everything from the top. We sat down and I suddenly had back pain and knew it was not my back that was paining but someone close to me so I started asking around if someone had back pain and no one had any. Holy Spirit highlighted a man out for me sitting on a rock alone praying. It took every last bit of confidence I had to go up to him and he then confirmed that he had back pain. I prayed for him and he was healed, he then shared on how he got confirmation about something that he just prayed to God about and no one could've known about through me.
The Man and I started talking and I was so encouraged about what happend, just a few minutes later one of his friend's sons came and sat with us and we started talking, then an other guy joined us too, this was so crazy and we just had a chat about God and how crazy it is that we sometimes feel alone but there are sooooo many brothers and sisters that we have in Christ. The mans name, for whom I prayed, was pastor John. Jesus really used him and the other people to bless me. When walking back to my people a random lady came to me and said that she heard my story and just wantes to give me a hug. I was speechless.
I don't want to have a conference before I pray for my brothers and sisters I want to be hands and feet daily to God. I want to be so sensitive to Him that I hear every thought He has about things and people around me. I want to be zealous for Him so that what people think is not even something I consider as a thought in my day.
I love road trips. I love people and I love nature. This experience was full of these things. It was good and challenging.
And something else, I really missed my people back home and God just made a way for me to see some of my people between a million other people even though it was only for a few minutes of conversation. He knows that I needed that.
God is good.
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