Faith is to believe something without having the evidence to prove it.
What happens when you ask God to strenghen your faith?
He gives you doubt...and a whole lot of it. It is much harder to keep on believing when every brain cell keep on screaming, " you are nuts to believe this!
To make matters worse it feels as though it is frowned upon to ask questions...for a while I panicked. Now what? I can't go anywhere with my questions -and I have a whole warehouse of them!
I started to pray even more fervently for faith, the harder I prayed for faith, the more doubt and questions did I get (I couldn't see the connection at that time, even though it seems quite obvious now.)
During this time I discovered that God left clues for us. He left them everywhere! You just have to have a willing heart and look for them. There is enough clues left for us that those who want to find them will, but those who choose not to, can be able to turn a blind eye without straining themselves too much.
Our God is a mysterious God who wants us chasing after Him. He wants us to persue Him with anquish in our minds (sometimes) and passion in our hearts (always).
Having doubts can be the start of a very exciting journey towards the heart of God or it can be the end of the road if you choose not to press forward.
I still have doubts, uncertainties and questions, but I look forward to a lifetime of finding (some) answers in (mostly) the strangest places...and to know God will show me what I need to know when I need to know it - and not when I want it.
Written by Christine Vermooten