I've been staring at this blank screen for too long, typing, back spacing, trying, thinking.. I wanted to have a cool start for my blog you know. But..let me use what God taught me this whole year. Be Real. Spontaneous. Soooooo this Blog will be about my Thailand and Malaysia experiences. We first experienced the lovely Bangkok and then traveled to Chang Mai , knowing our 'Luke 10' is waiting there for us. We were divided into smaller teams and then sent out to survive and spread the gospel for a week without anything except the clothes we were wearing. (Read Luke 10 in the Bible before activating an unnecessary anxiety disorder). It's a unfamiliar foreign country with an unknown language and we have no money, what a great space to fully rely on God. It's so exiting for me to see what people God planned to send on our path and how He already prepared their hearts for hearing the truth, thinking that a few years ago I was that person not knowing God, but yet I had been reached out to. Saved by Grace. The biggest revelation I got on my Luke 10 was that one get more blessed when totally depending on God + He is in control of EVERYTHING, every detail, every meal, every person we have met, every direction we took, every vision that came alive, everything. He is a Good Father. We had a place to sleep every night, VIP Room on a train station also counts. The following bullets will be a summary of our journey and also factual evidence that we have a caring loving Heavenly Father...
•not even once hungry
•had money left to give ties
• experience village living
• no passport
• went through few roadblocks
• worshiping at the back of a truck enjoying the company of a random chicken
• picking up nuts in the Forrest
• boiled eggs in a hot water spring
• sleeping outside on a ham mick
• saw so many animals
• wash people's feet
• spread the gospel
• prayed for people
•I got bit by a mole haha
• Ate sweet Bamboo
• count in Thai
• full of Jesus joy
• grateful for all the things we normally take for granted
• beautiful nature scenes.
Even in all the fun we had there were a few things God showed me where my heart wasn't in tune, for me it was hard, I kind of moved into a direction believing a Jesus-heart-formula reaction would be assured as I've been molded and formed intensely for so long now. But no, I wanted my way so often. I really learned what it means to be humble and selfless on Luke 10. I was challenged a lot as the majority of my actions came out of a place of selfishness. Furthermore I was so easy to see fault in other people, and actually in this team we are all just mirrors, when you point to someone it's just reflecting the things that's wrong in your own heart. Replace seeking justice with seeking compassion.
When we reunited after this time I was exited to fall back into comfort and a planned schedule. But we got a letter. Normally an envelope has some nice colors, maybe a flower on one corner, curly love letters all over the front. Now if a letter says 'bath before open' it's okay to make a uneasy frowny face. We had to hike from Chiang Mai to Bangkok (About 900 km) and had 3 days to do this. I cheated the system and asked a delivery business if they had a truck that goes directly to Bangkok and our timing was perfect, there were two trucks geared up ready to leave for Bangkok, praise God. When we got there we were obviously 2 days early and then decided to sleep on the airport even though we didn't even have a flight. It was lovely. We met this one girl on the airport and had hour long conversations with her. Searching for spirituality was her reason for visiting Thailand, she went to the Monks to find inner peace. We told her all about our way of experiencing peace and she was so hungry for the truth. Once again not a coincidence. God met her at the point when she was really searching. We prayed for her and she said she believed the things I said just by the motivation in my words. She recognized the Holy Spirit. She felt it.
In Malaysia we did some street ministry which required allot of confidence in Christ and complete boldness (my next blog will describe my process in that.) One night were we walking back from a prayer meeting and fellowship, we were walking through this small alley bumping into a girl that we met in a hostel five months earlier and her constant appearance was a obvious sign that God wanted us to spend time with her, we walked in that alley, looking like gangsters, late at night, we prayed for her and her friend, it was super powerful, they were about to enter a wild party and then being shaken by the spirit changed their minds. The one cried and didn't understand the overwhelming love. We were standing at the back door of this wild party fighting against the pumping music. There were so many people coming out for fresh air and their eyes were dead, I got tears in my eyes staring at them, seeing how they all just lacked love. The smell of sin was hanging in the air and they were holding on to a glass of liquedised satan as if that's the only hope. Lord give them eyes to see.
I have been saved by Grace.
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