God has been challenging me the last couple of days to share a bit of my personal journey...
...so this is me being obedient.
The reason I came on this journey, was because 4 years ago the Lord called me specifically for Global Challenge Expeditions in the year I finish school. To be honest, I had no idea what the journey was about, only that that I had an urgent desire to go. The one motive that drove me, though was to serve and to give A YEAR of my life completely to Jesus' use.
Little did I know that I was actually signing off my WHOLE LIFE for him to ruin. Jhup that's what's personally been happening in my life.
Jesus is ruining everything.
Everything in my vocab is of course everything I know, everything I love, everything I knew about myself (my identity), everything I hid from myself, and everything that no one knows about me.
Getting to know the lover of my soul, I realize all the more how my vocab never included Jesus being my everything. Everything I knew was nothing, because I didn't know Jesus. Everything I loved did not include Jesus because- loving your redeemer with your whole heart (I now only know) is being eager to have your life entrusted to God to ruin it for His glory. Love in my life was nothing like that. I also realize that I couldn't hide anything from myself because no matter how long forgotten memories were, even those that I didn't know I had, once you get to know Him, he doesn't leave ANYTHING in your life hidden and bruised. As sons we are called to live in the light and to walk in the fullness of his freedom.
So this is me being a 19 year old crazy person, traveling the world, trusting God to provide for my every step with no clue what so ever what lies ahead of me and what my life will be like when I get home, because I don't even want to go as far as consider making a decision without God calling me to it. Frankly I know 100% that if God would leave me in my head for 1 minute I will be screwing up all the PERFECT plans He has for my life all over again.
I'm burning with a fresh revelation of how we are called not to be conformed to this world ( EVERYTHING THAT WE FIND COMFORT IN ), but that we should be transformed by the renewal of our minds, by testing and discerning what the good and acceptable and perfect will of God is.
(Romans 12:2)
So if God has not ruined your life before then you were either born perfect, never sinned before or don't trust enough that the God who created THE UNIVERSE... And (u) has a better plan for your life than what (u) have created for yourself.
Put your faith in God... Sure the Holy Spirit is going to burn every piece of impurity out of you. And it's going to hurt, but would you rather chose suffocating your way to hell of allowing God to put you through the purification fire which works out in immediate journey of eternal life. Because according John 17:3 eternal life is knowing the FATHER.
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