Well, where do I start, it's been a long and challenging year, but when I look back, through all the challenges and hard times I have experienced this year, but when I put all that to one side, there behind all those challenges, I see something different, something that I did not see. I see the times of growth in my life, the times of joy, happiness, and grace that God has blessed me with. I look back at myself and I do not see the same Jarred, when I left South Africa, I see a different person,
a person that God has taken and molded into the person He has created me to be. This year I have experianced what it is to have a twin on the team, but to be separated from each other, and even though it seems cruel and sad, it was what God had planned, for me to learn and find out who I am, cause growing up with a twin brother, I thought like my twin, I did what my twin did, but I had no freedom of choice, even he didn't, cause we did everything together, and now when we were separated, I felt empty, I felt that I was all alone in the world. But I knew God wanted to show me something, and I asked God to show me who I am, who He had made me to be.
The first month was not an easy month, being away from my brother, but even through this challenge, I knew God would also build in his life as God was doing in mine. I began to walk a walk with God, and as this walk continued the more I began to see who I am, I began to make my own choices without having to ask my brother, and when I failed at
something, I had to fix up my own error, and did not have to ask my brother to assist me in the mistake I made. I saw the maturity I did not have all of a sudden grow, and grow, it was scary at first, but I knew this was for the best and had to carry on this journey. There were time when I just wanted to give up, and times when I felt I was being someone who I was not meant to be, but each time I thought of this, God just came and comforted me, and told me to carry on with the journey he has laid out for me. God kept on telling me to put all my faith in Him, and completly surrender all to Him, when I did that, I felt no more attacks, no more anger or weakness, I felt this warm feeling inside of me, a feeling that has not left me since that day, and I believe will never leave me, the feeling of God's fire inside of me. There are no words that can describe on this letter how this feelings feels, all I can say it feels amazing to have the burning fire of God inside of you. The day i saw my
brother again, he look
ed different, acted different, and even talked different, and I too saw that God also worked in his life, just as God had done in mine.
Today we may be twins but we think different and act different, but we still love each other as brothers, but we both know who we are and what God has planned for the both of us, and what He wants for us.
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