The first two weeks here in Jbay really flew by at an exceptional pace. The sounds and smells of the 'big city life' is a far cry from where I'm sitting now and I still find it hard to imagine that this is my new life...but with that comes the feeling of freedom and the comfort of knowing that someone much bigger than my imagination can fathom is in control!!
Before this whole journey started I asked God to break my mould. A mould casted by the world, people, friends, family, and show me who He made me to be and recast me as a man of God, filled with true life and truth.
I did this without thinking about how something like that gets broken, and even less about the remoulding process...
Needless to say, but God has been chipping and cracking away at the Marnus I knew at an imense speed and without safegaurding me from any of the emotions this process would conjour
up.
When we got here, I was faced with a bunch of people, who, and saying this politely, are just not my people. Camping in the Eastern Cape wind in a tent in which I can barely sit up straight. Hand washing my own clothes and standing in a line three times a day to get food...the thought of catching the plane back home and sitting in the office in a couple of days definately crossed my mind a couple of times, but the desperation to experience God on a new level and find direction for my life quickly disolved those feelings.
Well...two weeks later, and that bunch of people already feels like family. My defenses that I built up through so many years of disobedience to God is finally falling and God is showing me everyday how faithfull He is.
Remoulding happens through a process of fire...but it is definately worth every second!!!