When I was accepted to join the Global Challenge team I remember reading all the different team roles in the manual, when I got to the 'Team Leader' role, I skipped right over it thinking "I'm definitely not going to be chosen to do that." Skip ahead a few months to me sitting opposite the Global team leaders with them asking me if I'd be willing to lead a team this year. I'm going to be honest, my first response was panic! I felt totally inadequate for the job. All I was thinking was "Lord, I want to be obedient to you... but I really can't do this!" I wrestled with God and my fears for quite a while, I just didn't know what to do. As I was sitting there praying Uncle Norm Wakefield, who had been teaching us at the mission house, came across me. I asked if he would pray for me, but before praying he said something that really struck home. He asked me, if I looked back on my life, could I see that God was with me, and whether I believed that if I accepted this position, that He would be with me. Well the answer to both those questions was yes. But I still felt so afraid and inadequate to the task. I continued praying and wrestling with God but deep down I felt the conviction that this is what He want me to do. Then I felt Him saying so clearly, that I didn't need to be afraid, that I wouldn't do this in my own strength, that He'd be with me every step of the way. All I could say to this was " Ok God, ok I'll do it". I had prayed that He would give me peace in whatever decision I made, but God, in His infinite kindness and awesomeness, gave me more than just peace, He gave me such a feeling of joy and excitement about my decision. He showed me what a gift this opportunity was, to really depend on Him in a deeper more real way than I ever have before. So, here I am, still slightly baffled at being chosen, but so excited to see what God will do through me and with me this year!
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