I needed Him, still do, but in that moment I needed Him more, I wanted Him more.
The thing is when you see more of who Jesus really is and what He is like - your heart can’t help but change.
I’m at a place where I can’t help but smile when I talk about Jesus and what He is busy doing in my life.
In the middle of training God gave me a promise that if my heart is open for a change that it would happen, and in this moment I experience a complete change in my heart. He goes after hearts. He changes hearts and the way He changed my heart is unexplainable.
I realized that all He wants is to spend time with me and the moment I made more time for Him , He turned my whole life around.
I was at a place in my life where I thought I gave everything to Him, but actually I didn’t. Some things I took on myself and told myself I will handle this on my own to protect myself, because I don’t want to get hurt. But what I realized is actually the only one who can protect me is God, so I told myself I’m going to give Him everything in me, and if I get hurt along the way I know He is with me and if I celebrate I know He celebrates with me too!
I could have never imagined how completely free I would feel if I just gave over to Him. I’m running, running in a field full of flowers, barefoot, with a yellow dress on and my hair untied into the arms of my Great Father.
In Him,we do not become less ourselfs; rather we are freed to become more of who He created us to be
He made me free so that I can be my complete self- the woman of God He wants me to be. He changed my heart towards my parents and restored relationships with them, He showed me Himself in my father and brother, He helped me to be there for people in my team, He helped me to get to know more people on the team and to love them, He gave me so much to be thankful for, He showed me how to love without wanting anything in return , He gave me this time in the Philippines to have an encounter with Him.
I’m in the nations , experiencing so much and changing the way God wants me to change. I’m learning to know Him more everyday- the only way I can describe how I feel is thankful and happy.
What stands out for me is the intimate relationship I’m starting to have with Jesus- spending time with Him is the most important thing in my life and just because of that I am busy changing.
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