My Global Challenge Expedition! It started off much differently than I could ever thought of. I always thought I was this strong, flexible woman that can do all things and love every single person!
Then I enter the world of Global.
I surprised myself and actually, God come to show me the real me! I've cried the first few weeks and wondered why I'm here. I thought I was weird because I did not know myself! But through all the sadness I still had a lot of happiness inside of me! Fortunately I knew some people from klersdorp that was here to support me. There were a lot of things that happened in between like survivor - it was challenging but amazing.
28-01-14! This day was it! Every thing was just too much. I couldn't motivate myself, I didn't wanted to be motivated by any other students and there wasn't even a Scripture that could keep me strong! I was on my way to tell Charmaine (one of the leaders) that I'm going to quit. I wanted to tell her that I do not want to do Global any more. Deep inside of me I still wanted to be a part of Global but at that moment nothing made sense to me. I would have even stayed at home and do nothing! On my way to Charmaine she started speaking to some one and in my stubbornness I just stood there. I told myself that even if I must stand here and wait the whole day I will, my bags were packed and I was ready to go! While I was standing there I heard this voice in my head that I must just go and walk to the beach! While I was standing next to the ocean I asked God: "who am I and who are You?" Why do I feel like this if You send me to work for You?
I asked so many questions! So as if I'm going to ask God a question that he will not be able to answer - God suprised me! He gave me the most precious revelations and the best words ever. He answered my question about who I am! John 15:16- I am Chosen and appointed by Christ to bear His fruit, therefore I am His daughter! Then He answered my Question about who He is - He is greater than us, He can do all things! At that very momemt everything made sense again!
I went back to my tent and unpacked my bags.
This was just the beginning. The turning point from the bad and old things to the good and new. God came and told me some more positive things through a guest speaker, Pieter Francois. This time during training was so special to me. God came and establish a lot of things in my life, things I knew before but had no proof of, things I didn't know if it was really from God although it made so much sense.
That weekend God set me free and for the first time I could give everything to God without grabbing it back - to this day it's with God! I'm free from my past! God is my Saviour. It feel like I'm living for the first time! I was a sinner but God keeps forgiving me! 1 Cor 1:26-31.
Wow so many things at once, sometimes it feels like it's too much! The good news is that God didn't stop there. I had this amazing encounter with God and for the first time in my life I can say that I'm really in love with God! He is not just the Father figure in my life but his my Teacher, my best Friend. After spending time with PF, Oom Gerrie came and even greater things happened, more chains were broken and I could open my soul to the Holy Spirit to Fill it up!
We had a Luke 10 weekend were I could really see God working in awesome places! We can't put God in a box! That weekend God opened my eyes towards homeless people. A homeless man was our man of peace! The homeless people took care of us for the whole weekend! We had no money and God provided in every single meal.
After out Luke 10 we helped at the building site and there God spoke a lot to me. Its also important to serve people in physical work and not only in prayer and prophecy ect. No matter what the situation is your attitude needs to be right. Wow! Just when I thought I can relax, that it is finished and I can embrace all the things, uncle Joe showed up. He's an awesome prophet, I thought: "yay," I'm going to sit back and receive some prophecy over my life and then I'll be ready to go. Jesus, through uncle Joe came and shook my boat. We were encouraged to prophesy over each other. It was so special, for first time in a while I could prophesy over others and speak in toungues again!
We serve an awesome God!!!!
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