Running away

I dont know if I still have the right to write on this blog, but I surely would love to share my short story.

In January when I started global challenge, I realised how little I know God.  I got so afraid, and started to fear seeing myself clearly.  Incompetent, not spiritual enough, and ugly.  In order to protect myself I decided to find fault with my fellow brothers and sisters.....and the whole system I found myself in.

I decided that suffering is unnecessary, that everything was just peer pressure.  I decided that Im wasting my time and money.  That Im too old for this....that Im an introvert and wont be able to be a good team-player, that I dont trust anything or anyone.

To make a long story short, here I am now, in the month of May, and again God is whispering in my ear.  Even If I fail...would I fail for Him? Even if I make the wrong decision... would I take the risk for Him? Would I lay down my finances, my job prospects, my physical body, my dreams and aims...for Him?

God speaks to everyone, and everyone is different and everyone needs to be at different places.  God has a good will for you, but He also has a perfect will for you.
Im so excited to share that Im going to be a missionary again in June.  This is my season of obedience! Even if I fail, I would gladly do it for God.

May you hear God in every season of your life.  May you never stop hearing Him.  May God protect you, and may you be free in every area of your life.