Don't play with it. It's fragile. If you bust a string none of us can play.
It's just a guitar. I caught myself being so obsessed with something that can be so easily fixed if it were to break. Even replaced.
I'm still new, I'm still learning. The only difference between me and my 5 year old niece is she isn't afraid to experiment. To listen to every string. To play. To just enjoy the sounds.
I try to listen and mimic. She plays because she wants to hear the sounds she allows the instrument to make. Carefree her little hands move. Up and down. Playing each string, pinching, stroking, bending. Inexperienced little fingers making uniquely beautiful sounds.
Such freedom. I started wondering. Does God not just give us talents? Gifts? So we can play? So we can experiment? Learn? Discover? GROW!?
I think most of the time I just sit with the gifts in my hands as I sit with the guitar. I just sit and I stare at them. Thinking it to hard to try to make a move. To try and get a sound out of it because I don't know how. I'd rather have someone teach me than try to do anything alone. I'd rather mimic than discover.
I'd rather call myself tone deaf and not look like such a big failure when I play an off note. I wonder if God even once looked at me and said "Don't play with it, it's fragile?"
I wonder if he looks at me with big compassionate eyes when I stare at him with eyes full of horror. Lord what am I supposed to do?
I wonder if he is just waiting for me to try?
How proud would he not be if I just pick it up and start playing with it. My inexperienced little fingers testing the strings, making sounds.
I wonder if he'll giggle when I start laughing at the sounds. The off notes. Making music.
The point is. Life for me just changed and it will continue to change. It's time to pick up the guitar that has been sitting in the corner for 7 years and to actually start teaching my inexperienced little fingers what to do.
We are all inexperienced when we start out anyway. Not just with things, but with situations, choices. Life. Every second, every day life changes, things change, situations turn out different than we thought.
I think Inexperience is a gift. It's a starting point, but it's also a fragile point. It's a place where God can enter and know you won't tell him you won't do what he is telling you to do.
It's a place where we would let God move our fingers, place them on the strings and tell us how to push the chords.
It's a place where we can just sit back, hear God count and just move our fingers to the sound. It's a place where You can make music without even thinking about it.
It's a place where God meets you in chaos. It's a place where you look up and see God's compassionate smile.
Inexperienced little fingers are where we all should start out.
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