The sound of love announcing his forgiveness

Many of times we hear how much God loves us and wish nothing but the best for all his children; the ones that know his love and the ones that don’t know it as much. Looking back at my life, knowing all the wrong that I have done to others and myself, I’ve said and done things that I will always be ashamed of, the worst was not knowing if I am really forgiven. I’ve read the scripters and have said the words out loud, but still every detail of my past was not forgiven; well at least not all, according to me, looking for any sign that God loves me and that he will take care of me, regardless of my past. Seeing so many miracles happen to so many people around me but never to me, then having the devil having some fun in my head telling me lies to make me believe that he does not love me as much as the others. So having this scenario play out for years going round and round in my life…………………..

But recently something happened, something that can only come from God. So to start off the story I have to start at the beginning where I asked God if he wants me to play an instrument. He replied that I should play the guitar so is said: “Ok then provide one”. So as most of u will learn that the wise Jakes arrived with his guitar and then left it with the group (so still nothing just happened to me and I thought it was a blessing for the others and I’m just sponging of their blessings, I know got over yourself). So I started learning and enjoying every time I played and learned more and more. As we travelled from Izmir to Istanbul which was so long and boring so I slept and when we arrived in Istanbul I rushed out of the bus to help with the bags was done helping and realised something was missing. Low and behold I forgot the guitar on the bus that was long gone by the time I got my head together. So arriving in Taksim wrecking myself mentally about how stupid I am, telling myself that I lost my opportunity to play guitar, so after people telling me to try to find it but knowing that it is probably at the other side of town so it’s impossible to get it even if I know where it is so JA is, a Lady finds it and guess what (no se does not have it) it’s on the other side of town so she gets me a shuttle for free to the other side of town but my team does not know that I am on my way and I have no way to get back to Taksim, so I say once again “God I can’t but u can so provide so have at it”, so I get there and it’s a massive place and hundreds of stores and all I’ve got is a ticket and God, so I’m there almost no one speaks English there so I’m doing a mime act to get them to understand what I need but luckily God sent people on my path that spoke English so after a long struggle the one guy leads me to a counter to help and as he walk around to sit I see the guitar and wanted to explode with excitement, but kept my cool and lost it as soon as I left the building with the guitar, so getting back was something strange, but God was with me all the way I got to Taksim an hour before we planned to leave the station, so getting there and back with the guitar was the first time I stepped out in faith and reserved an answered at the same time, that no matter how messed up u were Jesus’s blood was perfect and God’s grace is great and he never forgot me and never will, so JA getting the guitar was amazing but the reason why it happened was the best thing I got out of it, and we all make mistakes and we all step across that line but nothing is better than the day find forgivness , so I’m happy that it happened as it did and I got to see his awesomeness first-hand in my life.............