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The past few weeks have been crazy busy, but at the same time a great period of growth and being stretched. I learnt so much and God was just so present, showing me that He is with me no matter what, but it was tough. Here is a little something that sums up what was happening inside. Frustrated and angry with no one but myself and still blaming You. I struggle with my powerfully, doubtful mind that at times rudely shoves faith and belief out the door like an unwelcomed guest. I found myself screaming at You, until my voice...

My dad once said I am at my happiest on a couch doing absolutely nothing and that if possible; I’d spend my whole life that way.

Words running around in my mind. Uncertainty pumping through my vains. Thoughts of what God should look like.    Sometimes we put God in a small box and we limit Him on what we want Him to do in our lives and not what He wants to do in our lives. I realized that I was so focused on the things of this lost world and who the world thinks I am that I loose sight of who God really is.   May I lose everything that I am and who I am and gain everything of who HE is...

This is something I started writing quite a while ago but I never finished it because I felt that I needed to perfect it in some way. But I realized the truth is that our daily (and what we sometimes feel as insignificant) struggles are very real. Sometimes the healing process is a continuous journey.    Everything is not always as perfect as an instagram post. Too many people compare their happiness these days based on the posed happiness they see on social media.  So in all realness and vulnerability..    I've been struggling and journeying a lot on beauty...

  Walking the journey God has set before us is a road sometimes only seen by patience and faith.  This gravel road leading into eternity. Looking ahead and stepping into today means that I am going... going in faith because I just know He will be there. Seeing the unseen and taking hold of each moment.     The eyes of faith see what others cannot see. Those who have faith live by a different standard. Those who can perceive eternity with their hearts will pay any price and make any sacrifice to be part of the city that God is building. Once eternity is in our hearts, faith...

We couldn't understand what the big deal was about, saying Global is a challenge. We were so spoilt there, that we soon realized it is simply impossible that we are that nice. God really blessed us so much! We believe God made us look shiny and nice, because really, we hardly ever bought our own food.   They taught us how to serve without an agenda. Their dedication towards God's work is amazing, for them it truly is God first and family second. It was inspirational! And the love of Christ just flows through them. They have servant hearts, loving...

So many times I have ask myself, Who am I?   A question I failed so many times to answer, but did I even think how important it really is to know who I am?   We are all longing for something in our lives and what we long for defines who we are .   So many times in life I have longed to be a person that is good and acceptable in the eyes of the world that I became someone God never intended me to be. I became someone that wanted to be apart of the world...

When i look back at Jordan it might seem dry and sad and full of heart break, but when i look back at Jordan with Jesus in it i see fulness, lessons learned and hope.  Yes, Jordan did break my heart. Listening to stories about families losing families. Children and their hopeless futures, having so much to offer yet so little opportunity. Love lost and no love found.  One of my dear friends said the following: “it’s not what they’re going through or in what situation they find themselves, but that they’re going through it without Jesus.”  When i take...

 I don’t know how deep the water is. I don’t know what’s underneath me. Through the murky blue I can see eery shapes in dark brown and black, but nothing more. I am trying to swim as fast as I can while still putting in the effort to appear graceful and in control.   The truth is, I am not at all in control and I am honestly really really scared. I don’t understand why I’m feeling like this.   Usually, I’m like a fish in the water. I have always loved the ocean. Its actually the one place where...

Back where I belong   Back in December of 2018, my sister and brother in-law announced that they where pregnant. It was such blessed news to receive. The entire family was so happy and thankful for the news and praised God. We all knew that it would be a difficult road ahead and that without God, it would be impossible.   I had a difficult start to the year and had to allow God to teach me to keep my focus on Him and not on things I want. To stay focused and trust in God and His will for...